I am so thankful for my blessings. I have such an abundant life. The Lord has blessed me with four beautiful, intelligent children and a wonderful husband. My thoughts are drawn to Sarah, wife of Abraham from the Old Testament. Oh how she wanted just one child. I am aware of many who are praying for children, many who would be willing to pay any price for children. It’s funny, or not, how the lord chooses to bless his children. We have never had very much money or material things but we do have a loving family. Some have many material things but don’t have a family. Some have neither but the Lord is fair isn’t he? He’s fair with the trials that he gives us and the blessings that he gives us. He knows what we want but more importantly what we need. Why did God make Sarah wait all of those years, until she was an old woman, to finally have a Son? That is a good question, and possibly, the only question. Why does God make us wait? Why is patience such an important thing in the eyes of God? And why is it that when we have been praying and waiting for things, they only come to us when we have given up or in . When we accept that we might possibly not get the thing that we have desired in our heart for so long, that’s usually when we get it.

I am sitting in a conference room, right now. It’s a college success conference. I am sitting at a table all by myself. I’m not embarrassed to be alone. I’m people watching. There are many other’s who are sitting alone and looking very uncomfortable and there are tables that are packed with people, people who know each other and are laughing and enjoying them selves. As I am sitting alone looking out at all of these people, I’m wondering, what silent struggles they are going through, cause everyone has them. What is in their hearts? Is it anger, hate, love, nothing…fear, hope? We keep these things so deep inside of us and we put on our faces, what ever that face may be. I don’t think that it’s bad that we do that, but as a human, I think that it’s important to realize that other people are human too. If we just remember that that girl over there is probably struggling just as much as me than maybe we can relate to them better, maybe we can even love them, as we love ourselves.