Most don’t know it but this has been a really, really hard year for me. I won’t go on and on about all of my struggles but I can say this, the Lord has been with me every step of the way. This year I have learned to put complete trust and faith in God. He has never failed me, not once. He has always answered my prayers, not always as fast as I wanted him to but he did none the less. I have also learned that to live in the world that we live in now; I cannot survive unless I have the full armor of God upon me, from head to toe, to protect me in the battle against evil. There are no more gray areas. The time has come for those who are on the Lords side, to openly choose it; there is no other side, except darkness and misery.

I feel myself getting stronger each day. I feel like I am coming out of a long deep fitful sleep, I’m a bit groggy, but I know that I will eventually come out of it and be myself again. I am starting to remember who I am and why I am here. I am starting to realize my purpose and most of all; I am more humble than I have ever been. I know that without my heavenly father…I am literally nothing, I really am lower than dust. And so the fact that he loves us so much, as lowly and fallen as we are, astounds me. What astounds me the most is the potential that he sees’s in us all. He actually, believes in us and thinks that we will make it. And oh! When we do…I long for that moment, to be embraced in my heavenly fathers arms once more…